In my last blog I stated challenges I encountered after my surgery.
As I said previously name calling was the least of my issues. Some of my other
challenges after surgery were I detested going to the beach or any pools. I was
ashamed of the scar the surgery left on my back and I didn't want people to stare.
Also, clothing became a huge issue for me. When I came back to Trinidad the fashion
statement for men eventually changed and tighter clothing became prominent. This
was an issue because my back’s curvature became visible when I wore some of
those tight jerseys. It was very hard fitting in among my friends and
classmates.
In addition, anyone who’s acquainted with me knows that I love
cricket. However, a physiotherapist informed me that cricket is the worse sport
I can possibly play. She recommended swimming as the best sport for my back.
This made me very upset and depressed. I eventually started a therapeutic
swimming class. This class contained older individuals who suffered from
different conditions, so I felt somewhat comfortable .Also; no one ever stared
or looked at me differently.
Another major concern for me was my school bag. Carrying
text books to school was a problem. I often hold textbooks in my hand but my back
was weak after surgery. Asking someone to help carry my text books was out of
the question. During my time from forms four to five my text books were very
important to the subjects I was studying. The swimming helped strength my back
and it eventually made this a little less problematic.
Finally one of my greatest
challenges was depression. I wasn't happy with myself. I often ask God why me? My closest friends during my secondary school
life were my cousins but sadly my mother didn't want me socializing with them
too often. My school life wasn't as bad
as it may have seemed but I never had anyone who understood me. Looking back I should
have attended counselling but I believed I could have handled myself on my own.